growing up...

I sat here today thinking that wouldn't it be wonderful to be out on my own? No curfew, no rules, no parents telling me what to do, how to dress, how to live. Nothing to tell me where to go, who I go with and how I do it. Is that really what growing up is about? Not having anyone tell me what to do or how to act. Growing up isn't just the moment when you leave for college and you take your first step out of your dorm to go explore a campus or you get your first apartment. Growing up was all about getting told what to do when to do it and how to do it, growing up is right now and, honestly, I don't believe that it will ever stop. You will never be "grown up" because you can even see it in your parent's eyes, they are still a teenager at heart and they don't know everything there is to being "grown up." yes as time goes on you gain more responsibility and more trust in people, you get married, you have kids, you get a job, you buy your first house and your first car...but when you actually think about it, your whole if is other people telling you what to do, where to be, how to act and how to live your life that you thought you would have to yourself. If you grew up on your own terms where would you be? If you made yourself who you are by yourself what would become of your personality? So next time I sit down and get angry at people telling me what to do, I will remember that those people telling me what to do, how to do it, and when to do it are the same people that are helping me "grow up" whether I agree or not. Life is about choices. Am I going to make the choice to take what has been taught or do I start over my life how I thought I should have been raised? Either way, my life was influenced on decisions and choices of the other people as well, and when I have little ones of my own I will remember how I felt and also remember my choices effect how a person makes their own choices.